Day 884: One Year from Now

Hello. My name is Ruth Cooper and I am overweight... again. It has been 261 days since my last post because I could not bring myself to admit the level of backslide and defeat which has taken place. It was easier to not update my weight-loss LillyTicker, showing 27 pounds away from my goal weight. It was simpler to leave older, thinner photos on my Facebook wall instead of updating with current images. It was preferable to stay at home, rather than have you see the work I've undone.

In Hebrews, we are reminded we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses and Mark reminds us nothing is done in secret which shall not be seen in the light. I started this blog 883 days ago as a form of accountability and a way to embody a small percentage of the cloud of witnesses I know are watching.

This blog has been re-activated.

I am not perfect, nor do I pretend to be here... but something needs to change. I don't have the answers; I don't even have a plan at this point. Over the past 14 months, I have slid almost to the foot of the weight-loss mountain I worked so hard to climb. The peak was in sight, I had 27 "steps" to go and I quit... completely and without struggle.

As of today, I have re-gained 75 pounds of the 119 I lost. True, I'm still in far better shape than I was last time I weighed this much - more active and still involved in running - and I didn't gain it ALL back. There were plenty of warning signs and turn-around points on my slide to today, so there really can be no excuses.

This blog has (apparently) inspired others during it's heyday, so I'm hoping to be inspired by my readers yet again. Having done this before, I know what kind of work needs to be done and how hard it was. I simply don't want to.

Feel free to be as bluntly honest with me as I am here on this blog.

I saw a bumper sticker the other day and it stabbed to the heart...

One year from now, you'll wish you'd started today